So the day is here. The Xolair has been approved as a trial for Alex and at 1 we will meet with his Dr to go over the details.
I am a mix of emotion..
I am happy and excited that things may change for Alex. He deserves a turn for the better. I feel proud that we are finally doing something to be proactive instead of reactive.
And in the same breath I am scared as all get out. What if these injections are not the Great White Hope that we have been praying for? What if he has an allergic reaction to them? What if he completes them and nothing happens?
I am trying to convince myself that I cannot worry about the what if’s. The only thing that we can do for Alex is something. Today we do something. I cannot do let fear keep me from taking action.
So today we, despite our fear, choose to act. We are so thankful for his doctor and nurses who have worked so hard to give us this option and we will make their hard work be for not.
Keep your fingers crossed!